Monday, May 08, 2006

Missed the meeting :P

Well, I missed that WW meeting tonight. I’m kind of bummed, because I actually like the meetings with this leader. In the past I’ve gone to meetings and wondered why the hell I was wasting my 12 dollars to hear stuff I already knew. I might not have been doing it, but that didn’t mean I didn’t know it. What I wanted to know was how to get myself to do it. But I kind of like this leader. She’s a little nuts, but in a good, entertaining way. :) But . . . I’ve only been to this meeting once, and I remembered it as being on ONE street, when it was actually on ANOTHER street, and I was already late starting out, so by the time I realized I was on the wrong street the meeting would have been ½ over by the time I got to it. And it’s not like they’re long meetings, anyway: 12 bucks for a half-hour, which at that point would have been 12 bucks for 15 minutes. I don’t think so. So screw it. I came home. :P But I did pretty well on the points thing this week, all things considered and I have one of those little books, so I can just keep doing it.

Actually, I kind of felt like a fool yesterday. I only started the meetings in the first place (this time) so that I could get the sliders and the books, which I had thrown away in a fit of pique last year. But yesterday, I was cleaning out some stuff, and guess what I found? Well, not the books, so I’m glad I have those, but I did find both the food slider and the activity slider. ::::sigh:::: At least I don’t have to go for 3 weeks just to get the activity slider again. But I do have 2 food sliders now, so if anyone reads this and wants one, I’ll give it to you. I posted that on the WW board, too, so hopefully someone will need one. I really don’t need 2. And I REALLY don’t WANT 2 of them staring me in the face.

Nothing much else going on at the moment. I had a mini-binge last night, but I planned it, so I’m not sure if it really counts. I think it might have put me over 1 or 2 points for the week. Ask me if I care. Actually, the nice thing is that I really don’t care, at least not in the, “Oh my God, I’m such a horrible person who has no self-control and no willpower and will probably be overweight forever because I’m a worthless piece of shit who can’t even ignore baked Doritos and crappy bottled margaritas!!!” sense. I care that it wasn’t the BEST choice I could have made, but you know what? It’s not the end of the world, and my eating habits were better this week than they were last week, so I’m doing ok. I won’t weigh 125 by the end of the month, but who am I kidding? I’m not going to weigh 125 EVER, so I might as well be glad for the small victories. Like 2 mini-binges in a week instead of 5 major ones. It’s progress.

1 comment:

Carolyn said...

It is progress.

You sound like you're doing great.